WOW I can not believe it is March of 2018 already. I have been back in Oklahoma for a year this month.
I have learned a lot about myself in a year. Wisdom and Knowledge are God’s to Give and boy has He given it!
I have learned that it was okay to forgive myself for shortcomings as a mom, daughter, wife, and as God’s kid. This is something I have to remind myself of often but such a freeing place to be.
I learned that my inability to SEE GODS LOVE for me aborted the ability to truly LOVE others the way God designed.
I have learned that nothing here on this earth really matters outside of God’s LOVE and the people He gave us to love. The things that we make into a big deal in relationships are nothing compared to loving each other right here in the moment.
I have learned that once you speak words into existence you can never take them back. God says life and death are in the tongue. God also tells us I set before you life and death, NOW CHOOSE LIFE!
I have learned that I cared way too much what others think. I allowed my circle to be way too wide and listened to voices that may have had good intentions but bottom line they are not God.
I have learned that each thought, each circumstances I find myself in God has faced it through His Son! He gives me strength, mercy and grace to face it as well.
I learned that all I have to do is ask God! One day recently He said to me; You have never asked me what I think and what I have to say about this. It was an area that I had many thoughts on, others had many thoughts on but GOD HAD A WORD ON! God’s word always trumps!
I learned that I in myself am not capable of any of this!!! I am not capable of surviving life, loving myself, loving others or even loving God.
I learned that I can love beyond hurt, pain, and disappointment in myself and others. How can a person do this? God! The word says GOD is LOVE! I am in God and He is in me so therefore I can love and I am LOVE.
I learned that I do not have to be angry to protect myself from being vulnerable. God protects me with His loving arms.
I learned that I can love so much more than I thought possible even if it is never returned by human love. God fills up what He gives me to pour out so I am never bankrupt!
I am sure there is much more that I have learned but these are the most significant areas in my life.
I wished I could take the knowledge I have learned this year and go back in time to some significant places, before specific people and have a redo. I can not do this but what I can do is live in the now and love in the now! I can say I am sorry and love beyond the past!
Dream Catcher 3:20