I am not a good swimmer at all. I can wade out into the deep with a float device but never ever jump into the deep. The deep water totally intimidates me.
I have been thinking about how the float device never lets me down no matter how deep I ease myself into the water. I wonder why I can’t trust that same device to just jump feet first into that same deep water?
There are times in life when God eases us into the deeper things and times when He says JUMP NOW! What if I was on a sinking ship and the captain was yelling jump now and I froze up? So what if God is saying jump now and I’m in a total state of fear and frozen in place. The ship is sinking and Cassie is drowning in her fear!
I have been struggling with my fear and trust lately. I have been grasping for air and acting as if I was drowning while wearing my safety float! God has never let me down! God will never let me drown in the deep!
Last night I woke up thinking about how I want to be so secure in my safety and security in GOD that I’m not moved by my surroundings. I want to eat and mingle with those who most wouldn’t and enjoy the fellowship but not be like them. I want to be out in the world to show them love with out letting the world dominate me. I want to go so deep in God that I can stand out in a crowd that is not like me with out fear of rejection.
Over the last month I have been thinking about the plans God has for me, the dreams I have for bigger things in God, and that He has for me. I have been so afraid of failing at them that I have been frozen in place. I have been so afraid to let go of the old hurts and disappointments because that might leave room for new ones! These are all trust issues! I am ready to JUMP INTO THE DEEP! I am ready to trust the same God who’s been with me from the shallow calm waters to the deep raging waters all of my life!
I love these verses I found last night about how I will be changed and ready for the deep! It’s not by me struggling but by me EMBRACING HIS LOVE! All I need to do is live my ordinary everyday life for HIM!
“So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.”
Romans 12:1-2 MSG
Who’s ready for the deep with me?
Dream Catcher 3:20