One BLOCK at a time!

Wow it has been forever since I have published a blog! I woke up this morning and started looking over my journal, and decided to share a little with y’all.

If you have been following my blogs or social media, you know this last couple of years there has been some STUFF… Stuff is a nice word for another S word some would use lol. I am going to share how I have been dealing with S in my life!

I had been in Welch for about two months if that when I had a powerful awakening from the Lord. I was separated from my husband and living on an air mattress in my daughters new home. They were still in Tulsa and finishing her senior year at college, I was getting a lot of alone time with God. I had felt nudged to pick up a pretty composition notebooks at the dollar tree and found out why!

One very early morning as I was waking up, I heard these words.

“Get your notebook 📓 and today we are going to build a wall”. I said a wall? “Yes we are going to build a wall one block at a time and call it Cassie’s Wall of anger”. Now I know y’all are going oh yeah right, you talk to God like that???? Actually yes and I can’t explain any other way than watch Eat Love Pray! In her prayer scene she ask God what am I going to do God, tell me what to do! Then her own words, own mouth she says “Go back to bed Liz”. God speaks to us in our own words, own voice and thoughts! We just don’t always recognize it.

Okay so back to my dialogue with my Papa God. I asked God what He meant about a wall of anger. He continued to speak to about how I have wrong mindsets and hurts that have built a wall one block at a time in my life. Now it was time to write each one down as they come to me in prayer and thoughts. I got out my pen and notebook and begin to draw blocks and write down things that came to me. I thought it would be five little blocks on the paper. NOPE!!! It was a page and a half!

I drew out my blocks one at a time and wrote in them my thoughts or deep wounds. When I was finished I was then angry. HMMM WALL OF ANGER… I said wow well thanks a lot now I have this wall and now what! God continued speaking to me even in my S attitude. He let me know that we wouldn’t leave that wall there. One at a time He and I would break my wall down. We would take each thought or hurt and speak love and life into it until it was removed.

Can we say Whew!!

Today I would like to share a few with you!

Block number 12

No more room for people! People=Hurt

Truth, Love and Life

God says to Love your neighbor as yourself.

Is there room for God? Then there is room for people. Is there room for you, Cassie?

If you love God with ALL your heart ,make room for Him, accept HIS LOVE and love yourself then there is A LOT OF ROOM!

  1. Be rooted deeply in His love Eph 3
  2. Love Him with all of your heart; the broken and the whole areas.
  3. Give Him your fear
  4. Love yourself enough to enjoy people even in their weakest moments.
  5. Love them in-spite of the past! Yours or theirs.

Now remember this is in my journal and just thoughts as they came to me. So it’s not well written lol

Block 7

No one will ever be allowed to demean me or put me down again

Truth, Love and Life

No weapon formed against me shall prosper! He takes care of that not me.

If God is for me who can be against me?

What the enemy means for harm my God will always use it for His glory.

Only what God says about and to me is the TRUTH! If it doesn’t line up with TRUTH shake it off!

Block 5

If I have the wall of anger; I will feel safe and less vulnerable!

Truth, Love and Life

This wall of anger entraps me!

This wall keeps me from being the real and true Cassie.

Be angry and sin NOT! This wall truly = SIN.

Jesus was humble and gentle at heart. Matt 11:29

If anyone had a reason to have a wall of anger it was JESUS. If He could remain in love, humbleness and gentle, that’s what my calling is as well.

Block 2 and this is a huge one for me!

IM DISPOSABLE! Like an article intended to be used once or until no longer useful, and then thrown away!

Truth, Love and Life

God has NEVER disposed of me!

I have never disposed of me! I have always continued to press forward and never give up!

God wanted me before I was in my mother’s womb and He STILL WANTS ME!

I want me and I don’t plan on throwing ME away!

I am always useful in God’s Kingdom. If my sole purpose is just to Praise Him and Love Him I always have purpose.

I do make a difference

I matter

All those who walked away from me in my life, did not make me any less valuable!

I am eternal in HIM!

Okay so these are just a few. There are many many more… But each moment I spend with my Papa God we work on these blocks to remove them. Some blocks get removed all in one solid kick down. Some blocks get chiseled at a Little at a time. Some blocks I am just not there yet. BUT my God won’t give up on me and neither will I!!!

I know that Cassie, the healed and whole Cassie. The childlike Cassie who loves openly with no fear is coming out of hiding. With one block at a time I am being restored to who He says I am!


I pray that you ask your Papa to show you any blocks that keep you from knowing His powerful LOVE! He is a gentle God and He will not push you but leads and guides you one block at a time.

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Gilman



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Kickn It Java Style With Cassie and Guest Cori and Kelly Episode 25

I had so much fun with these ladies this weekend. Unfortunately we had some technical issues but we got through most of the interview.

Please take some time to watch this video and check out their website below. OH and check out my sponsors listed below. You will love them!!


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So today I got a couple of text, asking me about the challenges I talk about on the podcast show.  I was asked if I could explain in more detail what challenges I am doing.

I am going to post photos of the 30 day challenges that I am overcoming!!! LOL!!!  I am going to stop saying I am struggling with these.  The challenges below are not difficult to do, however staying consistent in them is my battle.

The first challenge is the pushups.  At this time I can not do a floor push up.  I do this challenge as a wall push up.  I will insert a video to show how to do those.

The second challenge I do is the wall sit!

The third challenge is my hardest.  It is a plank.  Now there is an even easier level to start with on planks but I chose this one.  I will insert the level before this one in video format.

Challenge 4 is Yoga moves for beginners.  I am not really into Yoga on a spiritual level.  I am using the physical aspect for my body.  I have a lot of lower back issues and also tension in my body.  I have found that these moves are very helpful for me before and at the end of my work day.


Okay so these are the challenges in which you hear me vent about on the Kickn It Java Style Podcast or see me posting about on social media.


I would love to have you join me in this journey and challenges.


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Doing What I Need To Do

Check out my episode “Doing What I Need To Do” from Kickn It Java Style With Cassie on Anchor:

Scripture References

God says, “Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain” (Exodus 20:7).   He also says, “Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth” (Ephesians 4:29).

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Go Back To Your Beginning

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Love & Let Them Come To You–Let-Them-Come-To-You-e1uedn

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Shake It Off

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We’ve Got The Lord On Our Side~KIJS With Cassie Audio Podcast


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Hannah Hogner! She’s Living Her Dreams

I am beyond blessed to be a part of today’s blog. Huge thank you to Cassie for allowing me to share today. One of the biggest things I know about Cassie is her desire to Dream Big! Dreaming Big is contagious and I want to share my Dream Big story. A little over 3 years ago I headed out on a dream of mine. I have had this love of fashion since I was in high school, I think when I began getting the fashion itch. I wanted a Roxy top, Lucky Jeans and Dr Martins because that’s what the cool kids wore and had. Here is where I insert a huge thank you to my parents because that Christmas that’s what I got. It might have been all I got. I don’t remember but I was so happy. I also desired to model but I lacked the confidence to try and it was always that secret desire stuck in the back of my mind. So now fast forward to January 2015. 2015 found my love for fashion growing and my desire to help and inspire others mixed in with my confidence in who I am and (more importantly) who I am in Christ. I set out on my blogging dreams and started Living In Grace & Style with Hannah Leigh.

It is a little bit of a leap of faith to put yourself out there for the world to see and for them to read your pieces. More like a little scary, but I told myself if I can help one person then it was worth it. Over the past 3 years God truly has blessed me with meeting some incredible people and given me some amazing opportunities. You see when you finally decide to go for your goals and dreams there are a few key elements to help you along the way.

1. Believe in the dream God put in your heart and strive for it each day.

2. Knowing who you are in Christ (this will only continue to grow)

3. Never ever give up.

Some paths are harder than others and things and doubt will try to come up against you. But you have to keep pushing towards your goals and what God put on your heart. Let me show you a little how it worked for me. I did my own blogging thing for about a year and tried to stay consistent and learned as I went. As the NFR came around that year I then began to struggle a little with my confidence. The western fashion blogging/ influencing was really starting to take off and I struggled trying to be me and be different. I didn’t want to step on anyone’s toes or have them think I was copying them even if we might have had the same idea. They just acted on it before me. About 3 days in I finally took a chill pill and took it to God instead of trying to fix it myself or continue to feel the poor pitiful me’s. I took a turn for the better and kept doing my thing. About a year and half later I saw a dear friends post about wanting to start a group of bloggers and influencers called The Bleacher Babe Squad. I sent in my request and was elated to be selected along with some pretty amazing other women. I was beyond grateful for the opportunity that Brianna gave all of us. It helped me get out of my shell some and begin to talk to other brands and people. I was then given a huge opportunity to work with Wrangler and Cowgirl magazine on a fun shopping style commercial by the next NFR. I can not even begin to tell you how amazingly fun and what a cool opportunity God blessed me with. See, instead of having the poor pitiful me’s and giving up at the first NFR, I sucked it up and prayed. I gave it to God and continued on the path He laid on my heart. Not only did it bless me, it blessed so many other people as well. They saw a plus size, curvy girl, real size whatever you want to call it girl rocking what she’s got and it inspired them that they can do it too!

See, our dream big goals are not only to bless us but to bless others as well. Our journeys may all be different but, in the end, inspiring others and helping others in my opinion is what it is all about. I am now up to 2 years in and year two was another growth year for me and another huge blessing. I saw another opportunity to be a part of a Style Team that was part of the Boutique Hub. This team got to write blogs and style outfits and collaborate with an amazing amount of boutiques and brands. I was blessed to be selected and a part of this team put together by Ashley Alderson and Jessie Jarvis. It helped me in so many ways by growing and learning more about being a great fashion blogger and influencer. Along the way in year 2 a dear friend of mine along with her best friend started up a marketing and design business. Well this awesome business need models of course and guess who finally got the call to be a paid model! Yes this girl right here!!! I was completely elated as it had been a secret dream of mine since I was probably a sophomore/junior in high school. I remember my first shoot like it was yesterday! This again opened up another door of opportunity and by the NFR last year I was completely blessed to model in my very first fashion show!

I know this little blog has gotten lengthy but I wanted you to see what God did and is doing in my life, that He can do in yours too. If you see an opportunity and have peace. follow it! You don’t have dreams and desires on your heart just because God put them there so run with them. He said He will never leave or forsake you so even if you feel alone on your journey just know you are not. He loves you and believes in you and so do I! So keep dreaming big and never give up, for your journey will inspire not only you, but many!



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His Holy Fire Will Burn Out Your Logs!

Gods vision is so different than ours!

Just a few months ago my vision was distorted by big logs stacking up.

In 2015 the Lord brought a man in my life that I talked about, blogged about and was all about non stop. I was so excited that God chose me to be blessed with him.

Over the next couple of years I come to find that life is hard and sometimes if we still have things in our heart not healed from our past it can distort our vision. I began to focus on little silly splinters in his life and others around me and their lives. Log upon logs began to build up. The logs I was seeing was not his or anyone else’s around me but I was so blinded to what God wanted me to SEE I mistakenly took those blinders as others logs and not my own.

Over time I became critical and negative. I stopped celebrating and being excited about what God blessed me with in marriage, ministry and friendships. When we are building up those ugly ol log walls we are shutting God, love, relationships and blessings out and our own misery in!

Hurting people hurt people. I began to be bitter and ugly in my actions and reactions to stress and life. I stopped praying sincere open hearted prayers. I stopped showing and receiving Grace! Everything was everyone else’s fault in my mind. Not acknowledging that I had built these walls around myself.

In side my self pity, envy, and anger I created an atmosphere of non acceptance of others or myself. Making it impossible to SEE the LOVE others had for me or that my GOD provides for me.

A year ago today my walls pushed and pushed me to my limit. They were caving in around me. In a situation where if I had allowed God to dissolve them, I could have loved and received love I nailed that final log down!

Over the following months I have found myself with God chopping up each wall and burning it in His Fire!

When I found myself miles and miles away from the one I once celebrated and the dream I was living, I had to see the huge walls in front of me.

One early morning the Lord woke me up and said get a notepad and a pen! Okay got it now what. He said we are going to build a wall and your going to call it Cassie’s wall of anger. SAY WHAT?

Many years ago I was in Celebrate Recovery and when I was asked by my sponsor what about your anger you haven’t mentioned that in your amends to others. Excuse me but that’s none of your business that’s mine to protect and hide. Oh sweet baby girl your not hiding that lol

So here I am back to this anger! When God told me to start drawing blocks with wrong mindsets that built this wall around me I was like okay easy. I thought it would be 5 blocks. No it was an entire page of blocks.

April of 2017 I sit there looking at this huge wall, I was like oh wow thanks God now what! He said we now are going to deal with each of these blocks(logs) one at a time. We will dissolve them with my Holy Word and Love.

I wished I could say they are all gone but I know God is still working on me daily. Over the months He has helped me burn up so many. I went from blaming others for my situation to realizing Cassie this was all results of your anger and your trust issues with God!

What I want each of you to SEE is the fact that you may wake up and find the very things you dreamed of your entire life will be pushed out of your life because of your very own logs building up to crush you and destroy you. You will find yourself not able to LOVE AND BE LOVED.

We think it’s our place to pick splinters out. NO! It’s our job to let God burn our logs with His Loving Holy Fire to give hope to others to do the same.

Today I’m working on building doors of LOVE that open up to a sanctuary where others feel safe around me spiritually and emotionally. They feel safe to let their splinters be seen because they know I only SEE THEM ALREADY PERFECT IN CHRIST!

I detest the destruction of my marriage and friendships. I detest the hurts I caused my children in my life. I detest sin and want nothing to do with those old ugly logs.

I will do whatever I can to help anyone never get to the point of their walls crushing their lives and dreams.

Study His word! Allow HIM to LOVE YOU RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE! Every negative thought you have about your life and yourself God has TRUTH to dissolve those lies!

It’s so liberating to be free from those ugly walls.

I have truly began my journey of restoration and recovery

1. We admitted we were powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors, that our lives had become unmanageable.

I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.

For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. Romans 7:18 NIV

2. We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. Philippians 2:13 NIV

3. We made a decision to turn our lives and our wills over to the care of God.

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – this is your spiritual act of worship. Romans 12:1 NIV

4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

Let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the Lord. Lamentations 3:40 NIV

5. We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. James 5:16a NIV

6 We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. James 4:10 NIV

7 We humbly asked Him to remove all our shortcomings.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 NIV

8 We made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

Do to others as you would have them do to you. Luke 6:31 NIV

9 We made direct amends to such people whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. Matthew 5:23-24 NIV

10 We continue to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.

So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! 1 Corinthians 10:12

11 We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for us, and power to carry that out.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly. Colossians 3:16a NIV

12 Having had a spiritual experience as the result of these steps, we try to carry this message to others and practice these principles in all our affairs.

Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore them gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. Galatians 6:1 NIV

If you need the help of a minister, friend, counseling or a Christ Centered program reach out and do what you need to for your log wall destroying journey!


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Cassie Nations

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