When you make a list of what you have done verses what you haven’t done 💥
I SURVIVED!! I set my goals last year on this day for 2018 When I set them I was still walking out a deep time of grief and healing. I look back now and see I really didn’t do most of what was on my list. BUT what did I do.
I survived loss of friends
I survived betrayal
I survived domestic violence
I survived uprooting and relocation
I survived a divorce
I survived broken dreams
I survived a life I had come to know day in and day out haunting to a total end
I spent 2018 doing what I needed to do to make 2019 the best year yet! I DID NOT GIVE UP AND QUIT.
2018 might have been a year of survival but 2018 will be a year of ARRIVAL!
Now 2019 look out! My words for 2019 are Refreshing and Inspiring!
The hour glass is running out as I am at the ending of another year in my life. Instead of hearing tick tock tick tock, I hear the words screaming in my head “LET IT GO”! I need to let go of all the junk from days, weeks, months and even years of the past behind me. But how?
How does a person leave behind past failures, hurts, words and bad memories? I am learningdailyto do this very thing and it is not easy at all. I have found myself feeling irritable and angry for no reason. Hmmm, is thatno reason or lots of reasons?I am realizing that I am carrying years of hurt, disappointments and even fear with me into each new day.Sothe question still remains: how do I change this?
I am creating a safe place in my life to accept all the past hurts as just that…thePAST. I am allowing myself to acknowledge my failures and those bad things that happened to me and because of me. What’s next? What did I learn from them?Maybe I learned what my strengths were and my weaknesses. Maybe I learned what others strengths and weaknesses are. I have to look at the situations and the people involved in those past hurts and failures.After I have taken along in-depthlook at the situations and people involved, it’s time to ask myself if I need to take those same people with me into my future. The people we have in our lives may always go with us on some level because they are family or people we can’t avoid. However,are they VIP level or balcony level people? Do you want them so closely involved in your life that they have access to continue to hurt you or maybe to have the fear they will? Or do they belongup in the balcony level where they don’t have that direct access?Deeply evaluating these people will categorize them in their appropriate categories.
I am finding for myself to forgive those who hurt me I need to move some of them to balcony seats. Usually for me those are the ones who never make a life change to assure they will no longer continue the hurting. This way I assure myself once I’ve moved them to the balcony area I can then heal and forgive.
Forgive!!! What a word. I find this word sometimes impossible. But God tells me to do it and that ALL things are possible IN HIM! SoI am asking God to help me do the thing He tells me to do. The best way I am finding to do this istochange my thoughts. When something triggers the hurt, I have tothink of something positive from that situationorperson. I also find that saying out loud I forgive themhelps immensely. For out of the mouth is where action starts.I have better things to do with my energy and heart. One very powerful thing I am doingto forgive me or others ispray! Praying for the person that hurt me or for even myself assures God isfor sure right in the middle of this process.
I am going to spend the next few days of 2018 working on LETTING IT GO! Leaving some hurts, failures, bad memoriesand disappointments in my past. 2019 will be filled with peace, love, joy, new memories and NO MORE FEAR!
Acknowledge. Evaluate.Forgive. Pray.
I pray that what I am walking through will inspire you on your walk.
“No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead,”
Philippians 3:13 NLT
“Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.”
Ephesians 4:31-32 NLT
“The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences.”
So yesterday we was cleaning a house and sucked up a BB into the vacuum. Somehow that little tiny BB fell out of the hose and down into a space that seems impossible to get it out. Now the hose will not go back into its connector therefor the vacuum can not serve its full purpose!!
Hmm can you already see where I’m going with this tiny little BB story?
This morning as I was already trying to stay out of panic mode when my grandsons birthday cupcakes fell through lol now I have this BB issue. I loaded up my vacuum and headed on a mission to fix the problem no matter the cost. Oh the same on the cupcakes as well lol. My cupcake maker has a sick baby and so best to get some made elsewhere.
I ran by the the vacuum repair shop to find they was not open yet at 9 am! GOOD time to go to the bakery and order my cupcakes. I ordered my cupcakes 🧁 and had one issue solved. Now back to this tiny little pain called a BB. I took the vacuum in and he says there’s no way to get that out unless he takes it all the way apart. He continues to tell me since he is doing that he will clean it inside and out so it will perform better.
You with me yet? Bet you know where I’m heading with this!!!
I am currently sitting in a cafe evaluating why my life isn’t fitting exactly into place. Why I don’t feel I am serving my full purpose and potential! I began to think of this tiny BB causing such major issues. I wonder how many tiny BB’s are stuck in areas of my life that don’t belong? Tiny mindsets, tiny attitudes, tiny little sins that are causing great big issues!!!
Today I am asking God to do a service call on my heart and mind! Clean me inside and out and remove tiny obstacles from my heart and life! You see when a vacuum is serviced it has full potential and power back again! With God I want to walk in His power and purpose in my life.
Well I went there!!! I know y’all some this coming probably before I did lol
It’s amazing what one tiny BB spoke to my heart. $100 later I will have cupcakes and a like new vacuum! It will cost me as well spiritually, mentally and maybe even others areas to clean up my life. Time with God, time to heal, time to learn and time to mature. I just have to be willing to pay the price! After all HE DID! He’s already done the hard part!
Dream Catcher 3:20
Dream Catcher 3:20 Inspiring others to catch their dream and run with it! IF YOU CAN CATCH IT YOU CAN DO IT!!